Friday, November 18
that book.
was a pretty heavy morning for me. i don't know why. but my heart sank so deep the moment i got out of my house. and i was all heavy and felt so moodles and restless. i asked myself: what's wrong? it couldn't be him. nor could it be my emotions getting all over my mind.
and so, i thought maybe that it could be the bio presentation or the report books. that book. gawsh. it's total horror for many. well, somesort, i believe that. i don't know how come i just let imaginations rule over me sometimes. and sometimes, i just don't know what on earth i really am thinking which cause so much misery and pain. but i must admit i'm recovering. yes i know. some are suprised and shocked. but hey, it's me. nathania. i'm strong and courageous remember? haha. ((:
and i'm always the one who brings you guys joy. so definately, i wouldn't be sad and stressed too. i've cried it all out the past two days. no more tears flow down my eyes already. ever since yeterday, i realised i was strong. i realised i've matured and grown.
though, i'm still left clueless and unanswered. i pray and really wish him the best in relationships to come. and for his O's next year. and i want to thank apple, cai ying, calean, shima, dexter and izwan for your continual encouragements and also your love! haha. man, you guys rock BIG time!
5:11 PM
